life is meaningless...without God..i mean it...though i know God is wif me all e time..i felt lonely at times..lyk wad my nick had said..."sumtimes i realli wish...He would comfort me when i feel lonely or depressed" i felt tt ppl is despicing me coz i am pimple attack?i dunno larhz..i juz feel sick when i go skool..is lyk recess..i always go haf my breakfast..e group i am hanging out wif..always finish e food den leave me alone n went up...n they always make me sit in front so tt when e boys come up..always lyk pushing each other 2 sit in front of me making me feeling awkward lorhz..i felt they always leave me out of things..i felt very anti nowadays..wheneva they had any probs..will come find me..ltr prob solve they will desert me again..haix..i thought over it yesterday..during klass time..maybe i shld change group..change 2 Zilin's group...tts zao wan de shi...maybe larhz..in my present group now i dun feel any security...i dun feel happie m i dun feel wanted in it..i dun wish 2 stay in a group which i was not wanted...i felt anti..realli honestly..i wna tok 2 someone..actually wna tell my sis..but den feel sleepy so be4 i could tell her..i found myself flying 2 dreamland *diao* hahaz..aft my sorrows..lets not waste 2 blog saying abt my sorrows although i am realli sick of it..ahhaz..2day went 2 church..hahaz..was wearing skirt..ee yucks...totally gross..make me look lyk a nerd..wahaha..aft church went for dinner wif Jie n amantha..hahaz..quite enjoy myself...though didnt talk tt much coz dun feel realli well aft eating...e fies is giving me a freak now*belch* hahaz..went home straight...went 2 play piano..practice my songs plus e "you r all i want"..hahaz..e song "all e heavens" front part stil okie okiez..but den i dunno where is e chorus...so is lyk i playing anyhow...dunno hadda play chorus..hahaz..*embarrassed* who cares..*grinsS*